(8) 1000 heartbeats, this is where we begin, right here.

Mini Entry#4

status:farhh, cold as ! and not wanting to assignment!
mood:sleepy, okay ? dno. CONFUSED?
currently listening to:always be my baby - david cook

This song has been on repeat for over 10 times now.
Although it's not how i feel, it's a song that makes me feel mellow.
I don't know how it came to this, nor do i know why it had to happen that way.
But it did, it wasn't something that i intended on happening and nor do i think, you did either.
But it did happen. It's not something i can forget, nor is it something to overcome, by acting as if nothing happened.
For something like this to come between us, i find it quite upsetting.
Because i do miss you, i miss having you and your friendship. i do, just miss you.
How you feel about this, i'm not quite sure.
From what i've seen, i'm pretty certain it hasn't even crossed your mind one bit.
But i guess i'm not ready to let go of what had happened.
I'm not ready to let it pass by, for i am not someone who does things irrationally.
Yes, none of what happened was intentional, but it was something that affected me.
For now, i do not seek anything from you, nor do i seek anything from anyone.
I want to move on at my own pace and on my own terms.
This is something that we both have to deal with.
I hope one day that you and i will become what we once were.
I truly do.

- Marty.