(8) That's what you get - Paramore

No sir, well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore.
It's your turn, so take a seat we're settling the final score.
And why do we like to hurt so much?

I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why, all the possibilities where I was wrong

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here.
'Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.
I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn.
Oh why, all the possibilities I'm sure you've heard.

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating (beating)
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

Pain make your way to me, to me.
And I'll always be just so inviting.
If I ever start to think straight,
This heart will start a riot in me,
Let's start, start, hey!

Why do we like to hurt so much?
Oh why do we like to hurt so much?

That's what you get when you let your heart win!
Whoa.

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

Now I can't trust myself with anything but this,
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa

(8) Halo - Bethany Joy Lenz

status:waiting for my nails to dry so i can shower !
mood:mellow ? =\
currently listening to:hero - mariah carey

Entry #6

So... i'm not sure what i'm planning on writing about, but i haven't blogged in a long while and seeing as i have the time tonight i thought i might as well.

Things lately have been chill i guess, nothing much happening - alot of bludging and chilling and i love the fact that i don't, well didn't have to do anything during my one month holiday ! It was hectik as ! But tafe has started this week and surprisingly i have attended all classes this week, so far ! :)

I've been thinking about quite a few things and once again with no surprise the thought of 'change' has come into mind. The way things used to be and the issues that once occurred have changed many circumstances and my perspective on the outcome of it. Although wanting certain issues to go back to normal, i now know it won't. I have given it a chance, at first i thought they were going to go back to normal gradually but i was wrong by far and to my surprise, i don't care as much as i used to. In fact not at all really.

Now, as for people.. well let's just say no one is ever who they seem to be nor are they the people they let out to be. It really makes it hard to be able to believe anything.. really. Yes i understand change happens consecutively but if you're going to sit at your computer and talk to me on msn about how you respect others and about how you're different, then at least act like it rather than become a walking contradiction and fraud. You're the type of person that just makes me frustrated ! But now i realise that it's not worth my time and that you don't matter to me as much as you once did. - It's a pity really.

I've let the situation go - Everything happens for a reason, nothing's coincident.

I just really can't be bothered and i know you can't either, because by the way you've been acting really does not surprise me at all.

You are not genuine nor sincere..
And now i see that, it just took a little longer than expected.

On a slightly better note, can't wait for Arthouse !
Wish i could be intoxicated though.

"Even when that truth is hard and cold, and more painful than you've ever imagined. And even when truth is more cruel than any lie." - OTH

- Marty.

(8) 17 Minutes. - Johnta Austin

status:a tad sleepy.
mood:chummy :)
currently listening to:battlefield - jordin sparks.

Its been 17 minutes since my life started over without you (over without you)

And my pride tries to lie, but my hearts too empty without you (empty without you)

Dont want the world, just want the life

That I had 18 minutes ago

But all I got is 17 minutes

Yeah all I got is 17 minutes

(8) Roll The Credits...

status:cold like a mother fucker ! :(
mood:lazy as fuck !
currently listening to:hush hush - PCD

i crave it

i want it

hopefully it'll be real soon

it's gonna get messy.

(8) 1000 heartbeats, this is where we begin, right here.

Mini Entry#4

status:farhh, cold as ! and not wanting to assignment!
mood:sleepy, okay ? dno. CONFUSED?
currently listening to:always be my baby - david cook

This song has been on repeat for over 10 times now.
Although it's not how i feel, it's a song that makes me feel mellow.
I don't know how it came to this, nor do i know why it had to happen that way.
But it did, it wasn't something that i intended on happening and nor do i think, you did either.
But it did happen. It's not something i can forget, nor is it something to overcome, by acting as if nothing happened.
For something like this to come between us, i find it quite upsetting.
Because i do miss you, i miss having you and your friendship. i do, just miss you.
How you feel about this, i'm not quite sure.
From what i've seen, i'm pretty certain it hasn't even crossed your mind one bit.
But i guess i'm not ready to let go of what had happened.
I'm not ready to let it pass by, for i am not someone who does things irrationally.
Yes, none of what happened was intentional, but it was something that affected me.
For now, i do not seek anything from you, nor do i seek anything from anyone.
I want to move on at my own pace and on my own terms.
This is something that we both have to deal with.
I hope one day that you and i will become what we once were.
I truly do.

- Marty.

(8) Cos when a heart breaks, no it dont break even.

Mini Entry#3

status:sick-ish ! damn winter.
mood:tired
currently listening to:let it ride - atozzio


TEMPORARY BLOG - CONTEMPLATING ON KEEPING OR DELETING :)
I guess i thought i'd make another mini entry seeing as i cbf to actually blog about anything because from what i recall theres hasnt been anything that ive wanted to get off my chest or anything worth blogging about that actually requires the time to think and write. Yes, its currently 12.54am and i am talking to two weeners - jennifer tran and dominic nguyen. Nothing much of late has been happening at all, except only last friday was Tuyet's 18th Birthday Bash @ Pink Pepper Lounge in Parramatta and i must say.. WOW - it was OFF THE FKN HOOK ! LOL. narh it was pretty hectik but.

CHANGE.
It happens, consistently, consecutively and is basically the only aspect of life that isnt still. - i dont know if that made any sense, but it did in my head and i cbf to change it so that it does but im pretty sure you all get my jist ! Change is something that needs to happen and is something that all people embrace good or bad ! - its just bound to happen. Change is something we learn from, something we may or may not seek and definitely something that is apart of us ! As the cliche saying goes "everything happens for a reason" and "nothings coincident." It is something we adapt to and something we take on board to experience life to its fullest.

The only reason i think about change alot is because i think about all the situations that happened throughout highschool and how i would react to certain situations back then. Comparing to how i was and how i dealt with things, id have to say i was pretty immature back then and also not as strong as i am now. As much as i hated high school, it was pretty much a decent learning curve for all of us - whether the situation had been petty or big, it was still something we learnt and matured from. And once again i have learnt not to trust all things that are said by people, as much as you try not to you always end up falling for it. But i guess its natural to do so. Without learning the fear of the unknown and plunging yourself into risks, you're not able to learn things the hard way nor are you able to experience it first hand. Being scared is okay, but being wayy to cautious is not.

- Marty.

TIM LIKES LITTLE BOYS.

Mini Entry #2

status:freezing my ass off.
mood:feeling cold and ok.
currently listening to:nothinggg

TIMOTHY TRAN...

suggested that i write a blog about him and his stupidity.
Firstly, he likes men in the bum
Secondly, he likes men in the bum times two.
Tim also likes to believe that "smile crocodile" rhymes because he believes that anything written on the internet is true.
He also likes to use the rainy cloud emoticon on msn in his pm to symbolise that he is showering. - LOLOLOLOL.
He also likes to think that he is niggurh.
He also likes to randomly dial in the number for the police and then pretend that he didnt. - i personally believe he was drunk, but he denies it. HAHAH
OH ! and did you know that timothy failed kindergarten because he used his feet to finger paint ? - yes that is CORRECT. LOL
Tim also isnt all that great @ basketball even with his lanky figure and height, because he likes to stare @ the hoop while his friend decoys and passes to him.. and it totally goes over his head and only to realise 1o years later what had just happened.
Tim has a major crush on magic kingdom,
Tim is secretly a girl - yes thats right he has a vajayjay. - bet you's didnt know that.
HAHAH, timmy's dress sense reminds me of cabramatta asian boy style ! - cabramatta represent aye tim !

...theres much much more that i cant think of right now.
maybe later.

WAIT ! P.S tim has a major thing for AZN ANGLES! ;)
Curry is also tim's favourite food. AYE MANJULA BABY !

Hope you enjoyed your shoutout TIMOTHY TRAN ! :)
THE END.

(8) I'm like a statue, stuck staring right at you..

Mini Entry #1

status:about to head offline & jump into bed !
mood:not exactly emo, but not feeling too great and cbf-ing.
currently listening to:nothing.

BEEN WAITING....

.... STILL WAITING.

fkn du ma ! :)

(8) We'll watch the stars turning into morning light, right there side by side.

Entry #5

status:waiting for my kdrama to stream yo !
mood:feeling like a downer? uncertain of my mood, but not feeling awesome..
currently listening to:back2u - jessica mauboy

Mmmm .. i havent blogged in awhile and i guess its at that peak where i feel as though i should, or feel as though i need to. But once again im not too sure of what to blog about or my purpose of this blog. i really badly want to reveal the things that i have been feeling lately, but sadly i cant as this blog is wayy to private to be able to put out there my feelings lately. This kind of feeling i would personally like to keep to myself - only a couple of you reading this blog will understand what im thinking about or what im even talking about. PING PING PING ______ BLAH.

Dont quite know why this certain situation has been getting me down of late and i dont know why that whenever i blog, it seems to all be too emo, or revolving around thinking about life. But i guess its just something i think about alot, some may say that i think too much or that i over think certain things and taking it to heart wayy too much. But its who i am, its how i am and its how i like to deal with these certain types of things. i guess by now, you should all know that thinking is what i do best. Now i must admit that my thinking isnt always positive, it barely ever is. Especially relating to this certain situation, it definitely has negativity written all over it ! I guess its true what my friend said, my head probably has been up in the clouds of late, living my secretly long awaited story where i was the only author of it. Today she brought me back down to earth and made me open my eyes, there are still many possibilities. And although this story may be either heading up or even heading down, we still dont know. I just want some sort of sign that will clarify things straight up !

I guess its been lingering on my mind of late as this certain situation may be becoming more and more thought about - not a good thing. When it comes to these certain situations im assuming that history's going to repeat itself. It almost usually does when its relating to these issues and yeah i guess i am afraid of that happening because its been wayy too long since i last had a chance to be able to be feel the way i once did - which is pretty much 20 thousand years ago. haha. Without you guys knowing the current situation its hard for me to be able to elaborate what i am talking about but i guess i just needed to vent and let out my rush of optimism. haha or lack of it.

Moving on a lighter note, i would like to make a certain shout out to a very close bud of mine, whom is a FAG ! haha i do not think anything of it, for what you did and for the reasons i know of why you had to do what you did. Although you know i dont necessarily agree with the way you dealt with things, it is now over and it is now finally resolved after a long long time. Friend, i know theres a reason as to why you doubt us, and i am hoping to clarify that nothing's changed - well im hoping it hasnt. Because i still find you the same person as you were before the situation happened, as for not answering your certain question you know i have a choice not to. And even though i know nothings going to happen and i know you are now over things, i just still want to keep things suppressed ! Now i know you're questioning as to why i am doing this because before all this happened i know i would tell you everything but please just let this one go. It's not going to be revealed anytime soon because i am waiting for the whole thing to blow over. i know it is also something little and something that is irrelevant - so stop ASKING ! LOL. Because i still do see you the same ! :) and i hope you get that !

One last thing that i have to rant about is the fact that its true - NOTHING LASTS FOREVER. it still seizes to amaze me how things can change in such little time and how things can go either way - good or bad. I admit i have been at fault for some situations and others have been too. But i guess nothings coincidence and things do happen for a reason. Theres not much that i want to rant on about this topic because its bound to always happen no matter where you are or where you go. I guess you could call it a natural thing that occurs within life. And theres not much more i want to say about it. life .. is life.

"I swear that all I’ve done since i got off the flight,
Is missed you much and then missed you some more
Unpacked my bags, put on some tunes
But all it did was make me think of you

I need you to whisper in my ear
And tell me the things that i want to hear

Can’t wait until your arms are wrapped around me tight
All night, every night
We’ll watch the stars turn into the morning light
Right there side by side
The things you say, the little things you do"
- Jessica Mauboy

-Marty.

(8) the only one who's ever known, who i am, who i'm not & i who i wanna be

Entry #4

status:fkn bored like a moo-fo
mood:average ; blank ; things lingering on my mind but not too sure of what it is..
currently listening to:halo - beyonce

Started to write a blog @ uws parramatta on monday, never got posted nor did it ever get completed. Amazing how things change in just a few days and how easy it is to erase words written electronically - highlighting what you want deleted or needs to be deleted and just a hit of a button, its all gone. Interesting how life doesnt work like that.. nor anything else that seems to be realistic in this world. Ive noticed that although things are constantly changing and nothing lasts forever, there are things that cant be or never will be erased due to impulsive decisions without thinking through clearly of the consequences or just due to plain stupidity. But i guess that is what makes us realise so many different things within our lives and how we are able to learn from it, grow from it and mature from it. Those who dont, i guess that theyll just never learn or im guessing they choose not to learn until something hits them.

I was talking to CHI the other day about my past and how i had made many MANY wrong decisions within just half a year.. and that half a year leading to a year. And the fact that im always going to have to live life remembering what i did wrong, or what i DIDNT do. But its a part of life - we all know that and i know its something cliche to say but i did learn many things and have learnt a few extra things about the types of people that may live on this planet. There have been people who i have learnt from, there's been people who ive been influenced by - the good and the bad, people who have just remained acquaintances and possibly people who were in my life and silently stood by to see who i had become without even caring or talking to me about what i was doing and who i was becoming. I then realised half way through year 12 that i was much better off becoming more independent, better off not being influenced and better off discovering myself, by myself.

Yes i know in my previous blogs i have stated that i had lost a sense of self direction - losing myself and not knowing who i wanted to be, who i wanted to become or who i was at that moment in time. And at this very moment, im still not quite sure who i am BUT i can say that the past few wks i have become more certain of who i do not want to become and the qualities that i do not wish to possess or have. These past few wks ive become more chilled out, going with the flow and being more happier these days.

Theres been a few things running through my mind and that includes the aspect of familia ! They ARE IMPORTANT TO ME ! Although it may not seem so, they are ! I respect each and everyone one of them in their own ways. But whats always been lingering on my mind is the fact that i feel repentant when it comes to giving little or no time to family. Mums always stating the fact that i never talk to her and im always talking to my friends. Its true. I hate how things have become this way due to my selfishness and not trying more with mum. No one else is to blame but myself. The fact that she cares and loves me so much even if she can be strict or protective of me, i am still grateful for everythings shes done - not only me but whats shes done for the family. As days fly by, theyre not getting any younger and the minimal effort of wanting to hold a proper conversation with her is hard for me. As much as i want to open up to her and as much as i want to talk to her, i just cant seem to be able to bring myself to do it. I even feel funny just saying the words "im sorry" to her. I dont want to take family for granted nor do i want to be distant to them. I envy the people who are able to talk to their families about anything and everything - to be able to just even tell a joke or small chit chat. I really do hate this feeling and i hate that this is always @ the back of my mind, because it really does hurt me that im not able to properly talk to mum or the rest of my family.

Other lingering thoughts that has been eating away @ my mind are friendships, relationships and how life can be so god damn contradicting. Friendships and relationships often change due to many reasons and are often affected by lifes many contradicting aspects. For those friends who i have shunned - i am deeply and truly sorry for not making time or effort for the friendships who were worth being valued and worth spending time on. I must make special mention to Samantha, Sarah, Malina, Debbie, Veo, Zac and Bek (and theres probably more, sorry if i didnt mention you) - You's were the ones who stuck with me till the end and now that high school is over, i seem to have neglected these important friendships. I guess its now even harder to mend due to the fact that we've gone our separate ways to do what we choose to do. But i really do hope that i am able to catch up with all of you every soon ! truly am sorry. It's really sad to think that vital friendships are broken within a blink of an eye.

...As for relationships, i am really beginning to miss having one. But enough said, no need to delve into that topic anymore.

And as for life being contradicting, always will be! Its interesting how alot if not most friendships are based on the general terms of "bros over hoes" or "chicks before dicks", now everyone knows that in the end, it never seems to be the case. Somehow one way or another the opposite sex always tends to somehow end up meddling some form of friendship between two people - or possibly even more. Hypocrisy these days just dont seem to be as bad as contradiction. The fact that people or maybe even believers tend to say "live life to the full, take chances and take risks" or "lifes too short" - just generalisations, cant think of any other general contradictions within life atm. people always tend to think about the consequences of initiating these risks - even if its just trying to talk to a person of the opposite sex. It can be as little as that! But HEY ! i guess thats life.

Ok, i cant ramble on anymore. so i stop here. THE END =)

"I miss all the little things I never thought that they’d mean everything to me..

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here"
- Lifehouse

- Marty.

Lyrics #1

status:chilling
mood:chilled ; sleepy ; tired.
currently listening to:Restaurant - Marques Houston

Whatever It Takes - Lifehouse

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

(8) Have you ever wanted to be someone else? Have you ever wanted to just be someone? Have you ever wanted life to be more than it seems?

Entry #3

status:downloading alot of shawn mcdonald songs!
mood:feeling mixed emotions ; blank.
listening to:simply nothing - shawn mcdonald.

Due to popular demand, i have been forced to write another blog within the same week.
haha okay i joke i joke. Im not quite sure, but i just wanted to blog again because my previous blog that i wrote yesterday; meaning saturday, was not a blog entry that i was satisfied with. i feel as though i like to blog with either a meaning or a reason, i dont like to nor do i want to write blogs where i recount my day.

Today was an interesting day, due to nothing triggering the mood that overtook me today. From running around, climbing in and out of windows, laughing till my stomach hurted and not having a care in the world, i felt as though i was 12 again last night. I'd have to say it was one of the best nights ive had in awhile, even if it was just being plain silly. Recounting the events that occurred the night before made me realise that it was over. Made me realise that i was out of high school and the fact that im 18 and also the fact that it was probably time for me to step back out into the real world and i guess you could say "embrace" whatever may come my way.

It really makes me begin to wonder and to think about how time flies by so quickly. 18 years of my life passed, just like that with a click of the fingers. I look back and question myself if i ever lived life to its fullest potential. Talking to a friend today and by him saying that he lives FOR everyday, living on a day to day basis and taking it as it comes by trying not to take it for granted and now thinking about it once again, i would have to say it makes me envious of him. Now i know i said that envy mightve not been the correct word to use, but the more i think about it, envy is the ONLY word that comes to mind. Living life to the fullest is what i used to say, its what i used to supposedly believe in. Although i did believe in it, i never acted upon it. Again framing myself into the light of being a hypocrite. I guess its true when they say that life is too short and by dwelling on the bad things or things not going your way is definitely not the way to approach things nor is it the way to look at life. Being grateful for what you do HAVE and by not taking it for granted is how you should see things. Seizing opportunity and chances is what makes your life and not letting fear control you. My same friend also said that in the end, you're the one who has to gain everything for yourself.

Reflective moods are quite enjoyable even if my friends and i were being downers today. haha you know who you emo kids are ! Whilst listening to Shawn McDonald, im pretty sure we all felt similar in the sense of thinking about life or thinking about personal issues that we may have come across. At the moment i must say i am inlove with shawn mcdonald's songs and would like to thank my dear friend for introducing us to him ! Never thought that an artist would provoke so many thoughts in a 20 minute car ride. The wonders and greatness of music. So many things are different from what they may seem and i guess thinking about life and its troubles is what makes us learn and is what makes us grow as individuals. Speaking in the perspective of not knowing where life might take us, I sat in the car beginning to think to the extent of wanting life to be and feel so much more than what it is right now. Thinking about the changes i went through and thinking about the troubles i had to overcome to get to where i am today. Although i am still young, i still dont think i lived life to the best i couldve the past 18 years. No, there isnt a sense of regret maybe except for a few past events, but i wouldnt be where i am today and having learnt from my many mistakes. I asked my friend today, if he ever felt as though he wanted to do so many things in life, but not know exactly what he wanted to do.. I feel as though i have lost a sense of direction once again, not knowing the possibilities that exist out there. I feel as though i have fallen short of living to the fullest potential i have.

Where will we be in 10 years time? in 10 years time, most of my friends and i will be about 28 years of age. How far will i have come? What will i become? Who will i be? How will i be? Chi and i spoke of this for at least 20 odd minutes or so, really wondering what would happen 10 years time. How different things would become, how many changes would occur and the phases we would go through. We were even wondering what itd be like in even 1 year time. Its amazing how things can change, even in just several months.

I think this should be all for tonight. Got to save some rambling for the next blog! I shall leave you all with some shaun mcdonald lyrics.

"As I’m standing here, staring into the mirror
See the figure of a man trying to take a stand
And live for something more
Take this life, won’t you change this life
Come and make me whole"

- Marty.

(8) I'm Not Afraid To Walk Alone...

Entry #2


status:just chilling @ a mates.
mood:tired as hell !
currently listening to:freeze - tpain & chris brown.

Thought i'd blog abit since i havent in a while and people were telling me to blog. lols damn whingers. ahah kidding. OKAY ! so i had a big week this week. It was my
18th birthday on wednesday, so i decided to skip TAFE and take a day off. I pretty much spent the whole day with my gay friend chi. LOL. look chi, you got mentioned this time. fkn whinger =P. Well started my day off as an adult by buying a scratchie LOL and i broke even, so it was aiight. anddd thennn chi introduced me to the Chasers and they are fkn hilarious.

Later on that day, we met up with the girls, jen and julie and ben @ parramatta to chill out @ a park before we headed back to my place. Pretty aiight park, was relaxing. Then the boys surprised me with a birthday cake. THANKSZ BOYS. And then we headed back to mine to chill out for awhile.

Friday night, jen and i got ready to go out to the city and hit maloneys and then havana. It was good to bump into my cousin, clara. been soo long since i seen that girl ! woo first time clubbing experience was kinda what i expected, no joke our hair was drenched due to the fact that it was so fkn hot in there. Everyone was drenched from tip to toe from dancing all night long. But generally, the night was pretty good apart from my shoes killing my feet, which resulted into getting one damn blister =(.

i would like to thank everyone that came to out that night ! the night wouldnt have been the same without you's there. so i greatly appreciate it ! =DD

i wanna talk about something similiar of my last blog post, but i cant seem to think of anything as of this moment ! no wait, i thought of something ! lols continuing on from my previous blog referring to the fact that i was losing a sense of direction as to who i was becoming and i guess ive had some kind of clarity as i feel as though i've gone back to normal but i'm still tryna figure out what's going on in my mind and all. Guess going with the flow works and im a big believer of everything happening for a reason. Life is life, you can never run or hide from it. As Margaret Bonnano said "It is only possible to live happily ever after on a day to day basis."

Now i would like to leave you all with a quote that got me thinking.

"Presence is more than just being there." - Malcolm S. Forbes

- Marty.

(8) Are you holding back like the way I do? - David Archuleta

Entry #1

This would be my first blog of 2009. My very first blog that i've written in a long time! To be honest, when i'd used to write blogs, i'd just ramble on about all these things that i wouldnt even know what i'd be rambling on about and i guess this blog wouldn't be any different to the ones in the past. Normally i'd have topics or things that i would talk about or i'd have something to whine and complain about. But nothing these days have really occurred for me to be able to have my little bitch fit about.

I guess today just seems like another gloomy day with the rainy weather ahead, a day where sleeping in is the best option and not having to care about a thing in the world, to be able to sleep your troubles away. But not for me today, mum woke me up @ 8.30 ish and i didn't even realise it was THAT early, guess cause i go to bed earlier now. Theres been a few issues @ home, and i don't exactly know wheres that's going to be heading atm, but hopefully things will blow over.

There's also been issues regarding myself and just who i am becoming, and the people this may affect or already affecting. Do i know who i am becoming? Do i know what i'm becoming, i'm not too sure myself and i guess "going with the flow" is where that might come into. I feel as though i am not the person who i once was, i guess people do change and i guess perspectives and habits change too. But by this change in me, im hoping it's to better myself and not to make matters worse, and in time i am hoping to re-adjust myself to the new me.

The photo @ the top of this blog represents change, yet also bringing back a lot of memories about that day. The 4 people in that photo were once closest of the closest friends and it was only taken 7 months ago and it always seizes to amaze me how things can change so quickly. From becoming best of friends to becoming just friends or in the most possible worst case scenario - not friends @ all. The whole "keep in touch after high school" saying really doesn't seem to apply much these days. It's true when people say "nothing lasts forever." No, i'm not being a negative person, i'm just being realistic in saying so. Even the friendships you have that you think are toughest and nothing will ever come between, in fact will actually not be as tough as you thought it was. People do eventually end up changing, situations change, but life still goes on.

There's so much more i could ramble on about, but i decide to leave it for another day. Hrmm, i also realised how much it SUCKS to be single on V'day. LOL. Anyways enough rambling, but i would like to leave this blog with a quote. =)

"People change, things go wrong, just remember LIFE GOES ON !

- Marty.